It's been about 3 years since I've felt this way - it has usually just been day in/day out, really low moments, and just trying to get through the day.

But this week, I've been more social than normal and it hasn't felt unnatural or like a drag; I feel energy from being around people again and genuinely excited to interact with them. I feel like I can genuinely connect with others for the first time in a *long* time. I believe in the strength of human connection. I feel like I can be comfortable being myself as opposed to feeling cautious and anxious. I feel confident, like I can trust myself and my judgement.

My interest in my old hobbies are peaking again, and I'm beginning to believe in my ability to do what I want to do again. I'm not all the way there, I'm still getting myself up and out of this rut. But I'm not afraid of possible "relapse" into those dark times like I used to be. I know I can grow from anything now. I just feel so hopeful for my future. I know it sounds cheesy, but I haven't felt hope in so long, and I don't think I'll ever take for granted how beautiful this feeling is.

I'm really thankful for my boyfriend in my life for always being there to listen and encouraging me to be comfortable with myself, as well as my friends who just are there thick and thin. We laugh at each other's dumb jokes and make each other feel like we're not alone in the world. I'm just really happy to feel myself moving upward and wanted to share that feeling with others.