I have been quite overwhelmed with life lately. I work at a day program for adults with disabilities making minimum wage and paying for my first apartment with a roommate. Finances are the biggest stresser in my life, and now so is my job half the time. My boyfriend cannot seem to catch a job besides Uber and I rarely have extra money for dates so we usually just hang out at my place. My birthday was about 2 weeks ago, and man was it great! My friends gave me gifts, I got sang to at The Cheesecake Factory, and a friend paid for me to have an alcoholic drink. It was so nice, and since then, I want it to happen again. Not on such a big scale, but ya know like having my best friend take me out for coffee and she pays for mine. Getting some flowers brought to me at work. A friend I haven't seen in a while just texting me "Hey, let's go hang out tonight, it's been a while!". Idk, I think my job is getting to me mostly. I have been there 7 months and feel so underappreciated, and then I come home and just play video games or watch Netflix Mon-Fri. I only get to see my bf about 2-3 times a week, normally on the weekends. I just feel like I don't matter sometimes. That the work I do, or the effort I put in does not matter. It would be nice for someone to do something nice and special for me just because, not only because it was my birthday. I feel narcissistic saying this, but I have never felt this way before in my whole life. I just needed to vent this as I do not want to make anyone feel like crap and feel like they now have to go buy me a coffee or something.