When college started I had been trying to get a girlfriend but every time something happened I got mad or disappointed. So even thought porn is free I always wanted to see people that I had a crush on in high school so I would buy nudes from them to make it feel like I was dating them. I guess this was way to fill the void of not dating. This also didn’t help that all this was going on during covid where I was away from my college and didn’t have human interaction. I feel since I’ve transferred school and got more friends it’s been better but I still do it sometimes. It has even affected when I’ve tried dating now. My mind will toward nude or hooking up more than trying to make a relationship. I want to change this and I believe I can but I just can’t talk about this with my parents. I think something needs to change just don’t know what.

Thanks for listening if you have any feedback that would be greatly appreciated!