Right so I’m not writing this to come off as “the guy” or whatever. But I’m a slightly good looking guy and I know a lot of women and girls find me attractive. I have sex with them and never speak to them again just to see if I can. Before lockdown I would go out to nightclubs and would make it a mission of mine to see if I can get a girl to come back with me, I’m usually successful.

I don’t think I am a sex addict but I certainly do feel a certain “high” when having sex with people knowing that I can. I even have sex with people I don’t find attractive just because I know I can. I don’t know why I do this. I even had sex with a 42 old woman one time just because, I was 20.

I feel bad sometimes because I know these girls want something more with me, a serious relationship ect. But I know I can exploit this and have sex with them even though I know I don’t find them attractive. I have had a serious relationship because women just think I’m not serious and that I’m a player. Even though I know I am, it still makes me sad that I’m not able to have a serious relationship.

I know this is some first world problem but I can’t stop myself from doing it. I don’t even remember the names of most of the people I have had sex with. I even struggle to ejaculate during sex sometimes because I never found the person attractive in the first place.

I do feel awful sometimes after I have sex with a girl and I block their number ect. I think it gives me some sort of “power high” knowing I can have sex with a girl if she finds me attractive. Since my 17th birthday I have had sex with over 200 girls/women, I’m 22.