I have one day off per week and I feel guilty when I don’t feel like I was productive enough on that day. I don’t think I deserve that anymore.
If ever I tried to express that I’m burnt out and could use another day off, somebody would always come along and try to minimize my feelings by saying that other people work more and to just get used to it. And I’ve tried to for a very long time. I’m tired of trying. I have a panic disorder, ptsd, am plagued by phobias and have been stressed out for so long that I’m starting to get physically ill a lot more often. But none of that is enough of an excuse, so I’m just continuing to push myself. And I woke up today after my second time getting sick in a month, having to force myself to eat (from depression) I’m talking literally sitting at my table with a glass of water so I can swallow because my appetite is completely gone unless I take an edible, which I try to avoid. I can’t keep up with the busy culture anymore. I’m too tired. And I KNOW other people have it way worse but like, I really feel like I can’t keep up and I hate disappointing people or being judged. I don’t want people to think I’m lazy but I literally can’t do it anymore. What do you guys think? In a situation like this, would you allow yourself to rest on your day off?
Posted Jun 3, 2019 13:27 by anonymous
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