I have had so much bad luck and I am trying not to lose hope.
I am going to try to keep this post as short as possible. Here is the timeline of my bad luck: (excuse formatting, on mobile sorry)
- 4 weeks and 2 days ago I got my SS, my DL, and my bank card stolen
- 4 weeks ago to this day I tore my LCL
- I have been swamped with medical bills but can’t pay any of them, therefore I can’t pay for any further treatment to help my knee get fixed (20 y/o full time college student working full time as well, minimum wage, living on my own with no family to support me) I have no idea when my knee will heal or if it will cause permanent damage. One month in on crutches and still can’t bend/extend my knee or put pressure on it..
- 3 weeks ago my work got so angry with me for not being able to do everything as efficiently since I’m on crutches, since then they’ve been giving me shit and gossiping about me, and also making rude jokes to my face and making fun of my positive attitude
- 2 weeks ago i had such bad dental pain, turns out all of my wisdom teeth grew in and i have to get them removed asap, have no money for that
- 2 weeks ago i got denied for free healthcare confirming i can’t get any medical / dental work done to help me
- Last week a woman reversed right back in to my car and caused a dent. She has yet to contact her insurance so my new car i financed last year is now dented..
- I coach a soccer team and although my boys team is not the best, I make sure we always have fun so they don’t get discouraged. This week, we lost today and i was very positive and uplifting about it because i always try to keep good energy, and the other team yells “Your team sucks why the fuck are you still so happy you psycho”. I crutch over to my car and written all over the hood of my car is “Maniac losers hahahaha” . I told the director of the soccer club and nothing heard back.
I don’t understand what’s going on. I’m so discouraged and I’m so sad. Every day is a struggle as I’m dealing with calls from my doctor, paying bills, school, work being mad at me, my team and the soccer organization, not having enough money for groceries anymore, not being able to work out or ride my bike or do things that kept my mental health at bay. I eat once a day maybe and I eat at work whatever food they have left over. I thought I deserved all of this bad stuff. But I started to think and I’ve never done anything actually bad. I always treat people kindly and if I accidentally don’t, i apologize and make it right. I don’t do bad things, don’t steal and try not to lie, i don’t talk badly about people and if I hear others saying bad things, i try to turn the convo to a positive one. I treat people with kindness no matter what. I always try to keep a positive happy face on even though I’ve been through so much in my life. I’m scared. I don’t know why every day something bad happens/something bad is happening due to cause/effect of something bad that already happened. I’m just sad and needed to get this off my chest. I’m speaking this now in to the universe that none of this is my fault and that I just need to get over this rough patch, soon my life will even out again. Thanks if you read this :(
Posted Oct 13, 2019 03:36 by anonymous
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