I hate how much you breezed over your commitment issues when we met.
I hate how perfect you seemed.
I hate the beautiful person you are.
I hate your gorgeous laugh.
I hate your beautiful long legs.
I hate your sharp wit and silver tongue.
I hate that I knew you were hesitant for a relationship and thought you were ready.
I hate that you never were.
I hate that you didnt tell me you werent ready until it was too late.
I hate all the blissful nights laughing until 3 am naked in your bed.
I hate how you made me feel safe like no one ever has.
I hate just how much I melted in to your every touch and word.
I hate how I convinced myself you loved me enough.
I hate how i convinced myself I didnt need you to love me back.
I hate how much I daydream about you and your stupid lips and your stupid touch and your stupid jokes.
I hate how much it kills me to say "my friend' or "my ex"

....i hate how cold you become out of fear.
I hate the soft, scared girl hiding under your facade.
I hate that I never got to see it.
I hate the future I saw with us.
I hate that I fell in love with your family too..
I hate that sex never felt good until I met you.
I hate that I will have to hold everyone else to the standard of you and no one will ever live up.
I hate how 7 months with you were happier than the last 9 years of my life.
I hate how thats gone in the blink of an eye.
I hate your mermaid hair.
I hate the taste of your tongue.
I hate the way you'd take my hand and pull me in while you were asleep and I was still awake.
I hate how much my family loved you.
How much my cats loved you.
How much I loved you.

I hate that I cry at night missing you.
When I never really had you at all.