I feel like I’m living in 1984. Thought police controlling a narrative of an unattainable American dream, with perpetual disinformation, violence, and hate. Propaganda on all facets of media. Here I am trying not to care and focus on my life, but it has become my life. I work and can never seem to get a leg up, just the way it’s designed. I try to stay away from it, but that’s all there is. We are laborers, the uneducated , brainwashed, anger filled, pathetic. I want a life, but I cannot have one. I’m born into poverty, and I will die in poverty. I will never get to do what I love, I will never get to live out my dream, I will never get my family back. We are being government by the elite, corporate scum, who will keep brainwashing us into thinking we have a choice, that a vote will get you that dream. Keep us hanging on by just enough hope to keep the industrial gears turning. But I HATE IT, I WANT A FUCKING CHANCE. I DONT WANT TO LIVE LIKE THIS ANYMORE. SOMEBODY FUCKING HELP, HELP HELP HELP HELP. But nobody will help. People will give me advice, and I will try, and maybe for a little while I will think it’s working, all until once day I get pulled over, get behind on a bill, lose my job, lose my girlfriend, lose my kid. I’m at the point where I just don’t want to try anymore. I don’t enjoy my life anymore, and going in these circles is just not worth the off chance that I might one day, just maybe, get a break. I already lost my kid, and raising a family was something I thought would be the highlight of my life. I feel like this life is purgatory. I don’t want to end my life, I really don’t, but I’ve been thinking about it. Thanks for listening if you’re still reading. I don’t want anymore advice. I just wanted someone to know that I exist, and hear me, and vent.