disclaimer: i have no problem with indian culture, i just dislike having indian blood.

i'm half indian, half white; my mother is an indian who emigrated from malaysia, and then she married some white guy. being mixed has really been a problem for me. my mother's family have called me an orphan, an alien, and on several occasions state their humiliation with me as a family member. they never liked bringing me in public because they didn't want to see the concerned looks on people's faces. as for my father's family, they are embarrassed of my mother. i have a half-sister and she's fully white, so i do feel awkward.

i look hispanic due to being biracial. i get agitated when i'm at times mistaken for being hispanic (i don't have an issue with hispanics, i just don't like the assumption). ever since elementary school, i have been picked on for my indian ethnicity. people think i'm a criminal or a tech support scammer, whether an implicit bias or not.

so my whole life, my race has been a problem for me. i'm planning on bleaching my skin white so people can refer to me as fully caucasian. everyone fucking makes fun of me and never takes me serious. i'm tired of it.

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