I know it’s something very selfish to say but I just wish things went to the way they were, even though it’s the divorce was very healthy, emotionally speaking.

I wish I could go to a big vacation out of my country once a year again(God I miss Orlando so much), I wish I could buy one video game every few weeks and I wish my parents were still together.

I barely go to the house I grew up in because my dad prefers “”watching Netflix”” with his girlfriends that will dump him in 1 month than to spend time with his own daughter. I have to fucking schedule my visits beforehand.

While I feel (emotionally) better in my mom’s place I just can’t connect with the house(if it makes sense), I hate having to share a room with my sister, so I spend most of my time on the living room and sleep with my mom.

I just want to not have to choose between comfort and peace, I just want things to go back the way they were, even if it means that I’m depressed and I have to listen my parents scream at each other every day.