I come from a developing country and there aren't many decent paying jobs available in my city unless you have a college degree and connections. Most younger people just move to a different country to study or find jobs, so I did the same.

I'm currently sitting in an overpriced room I can barely afford, in a foreign country whose language I don't speak and I'm realizing that I really don't want to do this. I only applied because I couldn't stand seeing my mom upset over my family calling me useless. I think I messed up my registration because I haven't heard from anyone yet, and honestly I kinda hope I did cause then I can go home and not feel like I quit. I just feel hopeless and incompetent and I don't want to waste years of my life on getting a degree so I can do a job I don't give two fucks about because there's no way for me to do the job I really want to do or live where I want to live because I was born in such a shit place.