Went to the doctor with my grandpa today and the doc said he has 2-6 months left to live with a 5-10% chance of medication slowing his death. I knew he was sick but I didn’t know how bad and now I feel lost. Of course he had to ask how he would die and the doctor told him he’s going to suffocate to death. Damn….it sucks to think that’s how my grandpa is gonna die, just not being able to breathe. I think I’m telling myself 2-6 months is a long time but we know it’s not. He’s like my dad and if it wasn’t for him I wouldn’t have ever been able to go to college or even be who I am. I’m trying to stay strong for my family. They haven’t told my brother or my mom and they want to tell them together because they said my brother will need my mom. I guess that’s a downside of pretending to being strong when everyone around you is crumbling. What if I need my mom too?