Basically I've been an asshole to my family just because they've been needing my help for various things. I was finally confronted by my dad about it and now I feel guilty. I know and most definitely will do the right thing, its just that emotionally I dont want to forgive this glaring imperfection. I dont deal with imperfection well AT ALL so I'm torn between not making it an end of the world deal like everyone else or living in 1st world martyrdom by forever giving up personal things like video games or YouTube as a way to like pay penance or something. I just need motivation to remind myself what a worthless excuse of an adult beta male neckbeard piece of shit I am