I don’t want to be alive anymore
Posted Feb 9, 2022 20:51 by anonymous
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I’d never kill myself. I don’t have thoughts of self harm, but I do have both depression and anxiety.
I feel no joy anymore. I smile but there’s nothing behind it. I laugh but I don’t experience mirth. The things I’ve loved all my life aren’t making me content anymore. I’ve completely run out of steam. I work a job but I just go on autopilot, counting down the minutes so I can go home to sit in my room and not accomplish anything productive.
I’m taking a year off of university for my mental health but I can’t stop thinking about my debt and questioning my career path.
I don’t feel like my friends are in my life anymore. None respond to my messages. I try to reach out often but am stonewalled so often
I can’t envision a future for myself. I really feel nothing I do matters anymore.
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Commented Feb 9, 2022 21:21 by anonymous
There are meds for depression and anxiety that work wonders. Can you go to the university clinic? Friends may be avoiding you as depressed people aren't a lot of fun. Real friends would try to help you pull out of it. Get better friends.
Commented Feb 10, 2022 01:09 by anonymous
I see. So if you appear to be carefree it's only to camouflage your sadness? And if there's a smile on your face is it only there to fool the public? Well there's some sad things known to man but not too much sadder than the tears of a clown. When there's no one around.