I’m a (19) black woman myself and I’ve never understood why those are the main people who have bullied me and belittled me my entire life. I’m not stuck up in any sense of the word. I grew up in a poor black neighborhood and worked my way out just like everyone else has. The only distinguishable difference is that I don’t speak in ebonics or have an accent even though I grew up in New York. I’ve just always had a very eloquent, well spoken voice. That seems to always make them think I’m better than them or something... but that’s just how I talk. “Talking white” as they put it. I don’t even know how you talk like a certain race but whatever. Even despite that, getting along with other black women is something that’s never gone good for me. They just automatically hate me and get an attitude for no reason and it makes me upset, honestly. My own family is hostile towards me because I’m light skinned and have green eyes and have less kinky hair than they do and they tell me all the time “you just don’t look like you belong in this family” it’s extremely invalidating because I still deal with racism just as much as any other minority. But my own people don’t even accept me. It’s a perfect “too black for white people but too white for black people” scenario. I hate the culture that black women need to tear each other down to look better in front of everyone. It’s saddening and really shows how we’ve been taught to put each other down all throughout history.
It just sucks that no matter how nice or friendly I am to them they end up mocking and heckling me or making fun of me amongst themselves and it really fucking hurts. A friend of mine told me it’s just because they’re jealous of me and to not pay attention to it, but damn even if I’m envious of someone I don’t go out of my way to make them feel like shit. Why can’t we all JUST BE FUCKING FRIENDS? I’m literally one of you.