When I came back to school from the hospital I saw my ex dating one of my friends that he got with the day after we broke up,while I separated people who thought I was friends with and people who cared about me

Shit fucking sucks

I wanted to break up with my ex since I needed to be alone and separate from my thoughts of harming myself. The day before I did it I told my ex this

*Breaking up with you was the part of my suicide plan,it's fine you don't have to worry about me anymore*

We talk about other stuff and he got pissed at me because he thought It was threat. It wasn't I said what I feel and gonna do. I started thinking that he could of saved me that he could of saved me

If I didn't told him I feel I could of took more pills because that I was thinking at the moment

I wish I couldn't said nothing of him so I could of died