I'm tired of trying my best, and still feeling like I'm useless and could have done better. I'm tired of letting people foolish enough to care about me down. I'm tired of feeling alone in crowds. I don't  feel scared or sad anymore I just feel numb. I want my life to stop for a minute so I can catch my breath. I'm a mess and there's no way out.  I can't cope with this anymore. I have constant thoughts about dying and the only thing stopping me is the overwhelming white noise of responsibilities in my end. Everyone would be so much better off without me. I hate that I'm still here.