I did it, I left,....Sometimes I feel like I should have ended things years ago, definately not what you would call a healthy relationship in the basic sense, year 1 was great, however 2 and a half were fueled by arguments and manipulation and anger, but everytime I tried to leave something inside me would stop me, almost like I'm allergic to making big, important life descisions, I don't know whats changed inside me, I suppose I know that I need to start taking control of my life or other people are gonna write my story for me.

I did it, I left....why does it still hurt so much, I know inside me that its the right thing for both of us, shes got amazing friends and a golden path ahead of her, we don't work together, but none of these cold facts change the fact that I broke somebodys heart this week....it was only 2 days ago, my emotions are flying up and down like a yo-yo as you can probably tell, but honestly...for the first time in my adult life, I feel like I can start learning how to be myself outside of her. Thank you.