I know this is a lot to ask and honestly I just wanted this post so I could refer back to it later. Any words of encouragement or anything would be amazing but honestly, opening this post means a lot. Thank you so much

2 years ago, after a nervous breakdown, I realised I was a fucking mess and needed to sort myself out. It was hard, it's still hard however I am here and I am trying.

Part of that journey was realising what I value the most, I decided on kindness, learning, having fun and my mental well being.

I live up to those values to be the best person I can.

Today my body started feeling funny. I started getting these prominent heartbeats every so often that I'd feel through parts all my whole body. After some research I found its likely bounding heartbeat, not serious.

I read the possible reasons why I might have it and realised how badly I was treating my body.

I drink insane amount of caffeine, I smoke, I never exercise (I'm exhausted after climbing the stairs at work), the only food I eat is unhealthy foods and an excessive amount. I'm just shy of obese on the bmi.

I realised if I keep up with this I will die.

So I got up, poured out all my caffiented drinks, destroyed my cigarettes, binned my snacks.

Im done. I'm so fucking done with feeling like shit. I keep telling myself this will be hard but it'll get easier... It'll get easier...

I realised how valuable my life is to me. I focused on my mental health in order to realise that and take care of myself,completely ignoring my physical body in the process.

I hope so so much I keep this up, I deserve to live a healthy life. I owe it to myself.

If you got this far, or didn't even, just thank you. I'll be coming back to this to remind myself to keep going