Hey, so this post might be a mess. For context, I am a 24 year old guy living in the UK. I graduated from a decent university with a 1st class in a useless degree, went to do a masters and dropped out when i realised it was useless/i was also heavily depressed at the time which didn't help. (I still had enough credits for a pity certificate, but atleast they said it was a distinction). At the time i was a real mess, and moved back to my parents house deep in the scottish countryside, without anything around it (literally 0 neighbours). I dropped out almost 2 years ago now.

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Since then, i've had a temporary seasonal job and look for extra work now time. When i left high school i left with a shitty math grade, which is holding me back in some areas; i am working on trying to improve it but somehow failing the couse. I don't drive, but im learning. I feel like i will also fail the theory test.

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I feel like i've completely lost my ability to focus on tasks. I used to draw for fun, and could spend 10 hours on a single session. Now i struggle for 20 minutes and get distracted or give up. Ive completely lost any skill i had in art too.

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I have no marketable skills, no driving license, shitty maths, so shitty at art that i couldnt translate that to a career. I dont know what im meant to do for a career. I hate being such a burdon on my parents, and i feel so guilty for wanting to leave everyone behind. If i died, my parents would be able to retire off of the life insurance payouts. I dunno, im just a waste of oxygen with no options left.