I 14m cheated on my girlfriend 13f idk why I did it the night it happened I claimed to be drunk but was not only tired from I only getting 6 hours of sleep in the last two days my girlfriend was drunk tho the girl I cheated with in question claimed to be intoxicated (I don’t know on what) and that’s why she went along with it it wasn’t physical just nudes sent back and forth this is the worst thing I’ve ever done. And I mean that whole heartedly with all the bullshit I’ve done I know it’s hard to imagine what I may be saying to be true or to understand but I’ve never been loved like this before and neither has she. If the truth somehow comes out I will lie to her I have a script that I keep in my head this ain’t for my own ass either it’s to save her all the pain she’s gone through and is going through a lot right now and I don’t think that this would help anything I’m 6’4 and as she puts it “pretty” “gorgeous” “sexy monkey” “packing” your brain can’t fully comprehend your feelings like how some animals can comprehend some colors better than we can but I swear that I can feel this guilt and self hatred 100000x more than anything other than my love for her of course this will never happen again and I know why I did it and have forgiven my self simply cause I carry my self on being the best person I can be and helping others and not just beating the fuck out of anybody who fucks with me even tho they could do nothing to stop me so a moment of weakness is what I’ve boiled it down to also I’m black and that is a rare commodity where I’m from so ofc she feels insecure about my possible infidelity and I hate more than anything to say it but she’s right to.