I don't know what is going on with me lately maybe I just want to make problems for myself or something. I got a new job, pays more than the old one and it feels better but I don't know that it is enough. I live in a third world country, though I would say it is third world in name only, there aren't any real problems in here except that people like being mediocre and nobody seems to want to so better, as a result the country stays the same.

To be honest I am very well off in my country, probably moreso than many Americans and other first worlders. Nonetheless, I often feel stunted by the level of work I am given in my country.

I am a software developer, and sometimes I think the jobs there are down here seem more like what people in the first world don't want to do. Well I don't want to do them either, I spend an inordinate amount of time honing my programming skills and learning other skills in my spare time. I don't feel like the companies down here have anything to offer that is challenging for me. I am working on a project that I hope will be a future business, but sometimes I feel like I can't relate to anyone else in my field. People here only know about Java or C#, they don't know how to use a terminal, much less Linux. They don't understand a thing I say when I talk about technologies like Rust, NoSQL, Docker, Web Assembly, etc. It's not just employees but employers as well, they don't seem to understand those technologies and seem content to keep using the same old Microsoft crap that no one uses anymore.

I work for an MNC but honestly, I feel like they want to have us doing the stupid crap that they can't be arsed to do in the US.

I don't think I want to ever work in any company at my country ever again. I think this is going to be my last job ever, I don't know what I'm going to do but I just cannot do this anymore.