To start off, I'm a teenager (16M), so you might think I'm being overdramatic. Maybe I am. Sorry in advance. Onto my rant.

I have a problem where for a reason that I'm unaware of, I'm unable to allow people to get close to me emotionally. I cant form friendships or romantic relationships, because I just end up pushing them away somehow. I don't even know how to fucking explain it. All of my friendships are meaningless because none of them know anything about me and I keep them away from me. I wanna ask someone out (I know she likes me too), but I won't because I know I'm just gonna end up ending it.

I dont know what to fucking do. I don't wanna continue my life like this, but I dont know how to change. Maybe I need help.