Ok first off I'm bisexual and transgender, age 12 (and no I'm not doing this for attention or confused) anyway the thing is I have an extra and even since I met him in year four I trusted him I mean he was my only first while I was dealing with mental problems, I wished death, my brother was changing 'nicer' so that made me worried he was going to hurt me more than him just hitting me, I had an eating disorder (not eating for days) and on top of that I cried everyday and in year five we didn't really speak and I was getting 'better' than before well when I say that I mean I was emotionless and numb and this is when I found out I was bisexual so I hid that until this year, year six, and I told the my ex everything I trusted him with almost every secret I had (this is before I started to be aware I liked him since the week I met him) and then in around May I have my biggest breakdown my family found me sobbing for an hour and I told them everything that I was bisexual and my problems then the day after when my mum asked if I wanted a therapist I said no until she stopped questioning me about it and a few days later I asked my ex out and he said yes, great right? No, after about a month he got meaner each day to the point I stopped telling people my problems because he just made fun of them and one's I said in the past, then...on August 22nd at 2am I almost committed suicide I had the knife in my hand and the only thing that stopped me was my ex...and then September 23rd I told him I was transgender... He said that it was gross for my age to know that I am, tried to convince me how bad it was to be a boy, saying how bad it is to be transgender trying to change me! That I was turning on him and he started saying he was heartbroken and it was my fault putting blame on me that I'm a bad person for it and that he hated me, I hate myself too... I wanted to die because all my trust was broken he was the only person that made me feel like I mattered he was the only reason why I'm not dead now he's the reason I want to be dead...he told my friend and his friends when they asked why we broke up now I'm worried more people are finding out, my brother might find out and I have to tell my parents but I can't because if he can't accept me why would they?! They barely understood that I'm bisexual I sometimes read the messages again... I know it's bad but I do...and I need a therapist I think about killing myself everyday I have to reason to live anymore...