I finally have a band together and working on music after being "afraid" to admit my love for music and my dream of being in a successful band. Not to turn into a sob story but growing up my mother used to tell me to stop singing and performing arts will get me no where. She wanted me to be a dental assistant. Up until maybe last year I decided to say fuck it and post a video of me singing. I had so many people telling me they had no idea I had such a great voice and I needed to audition for American Idol etc. Etc. It was all flattering and eye opening but I still have this self doubt that I'm fighting so so hard to get tf over because nothing makes me happier and feel more like what I'm supposed to do in life than singing. But here's my problem, I'm now 21. Have a FANTASTIC guitar player who's talented beyond belief and were writing music together. He's been playing since he was a kid and can instantly come up with a great song and were working on multiple but I'm struggling so hard on melodies and lyrics for a full song. Or vice versa. I wrote an entire song not too long ago but can't come up with a single melody. I feel like I'm holding him back because we're kind of at a stand still on writing until I finish at least one of our songs. It's so stressful because I have the beginning of everything I want out of my life but no idea where to start with song writing. Or I can write a full poem but it doesn't really fit properly as a song. It's so upsetting because I know deep down I can do great I just am not exactly sure how to go about it. Part of me is upset I didn't admit my love for singing much earlier and start a band much younger because I feel like most people at age 21 who made it big started out much younger. I need help or understanding of what I'm doing.
Sincerely, a girl that has a passion for metal music and no idea what she's doing