We met each other in September 2015. We have shared with each other things that we might not have shared with anyone else. She is one of the most amazing human beings i have ever met. Even when she is a complete dork at times, i cant help but fall in love with her. And when we have a serious conversation, i cant help but fall in awe over how much wisdom this person has. We have stayed up many times on call to help and support each other, or if not that then just randomly talking about stuff. We text each other all the time since the day we became friends. Hell no one could drop her home in new year eve and i end up taking a cab with her and dropped her home despite of living way too far from her house and then went back home (she feels unsafe taking cab alone). Not going to lie, getting stuck in traffic with her on a new year eve was one of the best new year eves i have ever had and i wouldnt have it any other way. I have tried to stay distant a few times to reflect back on whether it's just attachment or i genuinely want to be with her. And the reason i did that was so that i dont end up hurting her. I have never had anyone like this in my life and i came up to the conclusion that i really really want to be with her.

College ends in May and She leaves the country on 12th Jan for 15-18 days and i was hoping i could confess everything in a long single text message. I would urge her to think about it and reflect back while she is abroad and we don't see each other. I would put no pressure on her. I am just afraid she might not feel the same and would feel hurt and broken over what happened to our friendship. But on the contrary, if she does feel the same way everything would be 100000x better. IDK what to do. I havent shared it with a single person in my life and right now is the first time i am typing and confessing my feelings for her. Oh God.