A little back story, I grew up in an abusive family, mom, dad and my older brother was the main villains. They were always quick to anger without hesitation or doubting if they were in the wrong or not. I quickly learned that my parents hated any showing of emotions from me, and I hated showing them how much they were tearing me apart.

I never used to cry, scream or do anything to indicate that I was angry, I would just walk away.

Now that I am an independent 21 year old I have noticed the habit I had taught myself was still there, I can count on one hand how many friends who have seen me cry and no one has seen me truly angry, but that does not mean that I dont get angry.

I do get angry, and it scares me of how angry I can get for small things, it just wells up too quick. I of course take a deep breath and never cause harm to the person that angers me, however that is because I do not get that close to people so I am always catious of appearances.

Do not get me wrong, I have many friends since I am a bubbly extrovert that can live solely on having people to talk to every time, however I am just so scared to deepen any relationship as I am afraid of my temper.

I hate violence, I do not understand why people think it is ever called for to prove your point, I have never hit anyone in my life, however it seems as if I have received my parents temper.

I am kind of tired.