Let me start off by saying I believe my wife deserves better than me. I feel guilty as hell for these emotions, like I am betraying her, but I just don’t feel the way I used to feel for her anymore. I don’t feel that connection when we touch. I often withdraw myself because it just doesn’t feel natural anymore.

Even if I don’t feel she is addressing my emotional needs, I know my wife loves me, so I feel beyond guilty that I am crazy about my coworker, like butterflies in my stomach crazy

However, not only am I married; she is too. Part of me knows that it is hopeless, but it doesn’t stop me from thinking about her constantly, and I am conflicted with how much these thoughts could hurt other people.

I just want to let my feelings be known and even get rejected so I can just move through the pain. But I can’t, because I would likely ruin my marriage, my friendships, and lose my job.

She brings happiness to my life where there is little, and it’s depressing that those moments are so ephemeral and make me feel guilty. I don’t expect anyone to empathize. I just need to get it off my chest.