I am a closeted gay man married to a woman and a father... and I recently discovered my best male friend who I was in love with as a young man is now openly gay Remorse
Posted Jan 2, 2019 13:17 by anonymous
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I loved this man madly. He and I were best friends in college. We traveled and hiked all through Europe together. We went to the UK, Belgium, France, Berlin... we drank together, laughed and cried together and made homophobic jokes together. We were awful together and awesome together. I loved him. He was so handsome. But we never told each other. I assumed he was straight and he assumed I was.
Fast forward ten years later... I am a married father of three. I love my wife but I am not sexually attracted to her, or well, barely. I love my kids too. I am too deep in to get out. And I just... I don't know... I never loved or liked any man as much as I liked him. I want him. Always have. Always will.
Now I see his social media... and I see him with a boyfriend. Openly celebrating their birthdays together. Hiking around. Traveling the world. Just as him and I used to do. Only this time openly together, openly in love... I watch all this from a distance. It is now a possibility forever lost to me. A ship sailed by I cannot hop on any longer no matter how badly I wanted.
He's aging well, my friend. His boyfriend is a cute younger guy. I am getting visibly older. My hair is snow white. I have the typical 'dad bod' and I feel unattractive. My life is boring. His is exciting. And the man he is with, has no idea how jealous I am...
And he never will. Neither of them will ever know. I have a family that needs me. And I am not going to interfere in the happiness of another couple. So I watch them from afar and my heart cries. Now I know why my best friend and I rarely saw each other anymore after I married. Now I know why he more or less ghosted me. Now I know why my over the top macho persona eventually turned him off. Now I finally see, after all these years. And it's too late...
**TL;DR:** I am a closeted gay man who found out recently my best friend who I loved for years is in fact gay and was closeted all these years. I feel like we loved each other and would have ended up together had both of us been honest with each other, but we never did. Now I'll never know.
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Commented Feb 7, 2020 13:54 by anonymous
I know where your coming from . I was in a relationship with a older man as a teen I was 15 the day he took my virgin boi pussy he turn me out that day breeding and seeding me three time !! When I was 20 I lost my daddy to a heart attack. I married my wife a year later after I knock her up !! The day after we married I was out getting fuck by my wife’s uncle at his hotel room two doors down from us . He is my wife’s favorite uncle so we get to play a lot on fishing trips hunting trips ball games and the sex is grate
Commented Feb 17, 2020 16:24 by whereaminow123
I know what you mean. I am married with kids but still think about the older man I was with when I was a teen. If I had another chance to meet an older gentleman who was interested in my dad bod I would take it.
Commented Apr 6, 2020 13:02 by anonymous
“I know what you mean. I am married with kids but still think about the older man I was with when I was a teen. If I had another chance to meet an older gentleman who was interested in my dad bod I would take it.”
where are you located man ?
I could use a guy like you in my life
Commented Oct 25, 2020 13:25 by anonymous
Don’t be upset, you can still offer your ass and mouth to many Alphas like me. We enjoy getting our cock sucked and balls drained and their is nothing better than a tight ass to fuck. Keep us posted and start offering your mouth and ass...
Commented May 31, 2021 07:01 by anonymous
I fell in love with a straight man and now i feel like a hole is missing. Hes with a girl and has two kids now and i try not to think about him but ive come to realize i never will no matter how hard i try. Im sorry ypu didnt get your chance just be honest with yourself, leace you wife and love your kids, and find a man u will fall in love with. Dont let the rest of ypur life slip by.
Commented Aug 9, 2021 15:14 by anonymous
I'm a closeted married man with a wife and three kids. Being hetero in America is the best. You can get fat, bald, get invited to BBQs and live a normal life without HIV and all the drama that comes from the fag lifestyle. I cannot imagine dating a man. Now fucking them, I can understand. Dating - YUCK
Commented Nov 5, 2021 11:39 by anonymous
“Don’t be upset, you can still offer your ass and mouth to many Alphas like me. We enjoy getting our cock sucked and balls drained and their is nothing better than a tight ass to fuck. Keep us posted and start offering your mouth and ass... ”
You have nothing
Commented Feb 7, 2022 15:33 by anonymous
“Don’t be upset, you can still offer your ass and mouth to many Alphas like me. We enjoy getting our cock sucked and balls drained and their is nothing better than a tight ass to fuck. Keep us posted and start offering your mouth and ass... ”
I know what you mean l have several regulars that love a good BJ and will message me when their balls are feeling full we make a date and l meet them the either suck them off or they may feel like fucking me first usually I end up with fresh cum being deposited in one of my holes and it’s all NSA