He denied everything the one time I confronted him, years ago and his denial of any wrong doing and accusations that i had lied after he took a good chunk of my money and told me he was only friends with me because he took pity on me left me feeling shit for a few years.

With antidepressants and therapy (for other things but he was mentioned and dealt with) i thought i was past it all. I haven't spoken to him or had any contact with him until recently, when a few mutual friends added him to a group chat and just seeing his name there and knowing that he was reading what i was typing and replying made me come very close to having a panic attack.

Other people might just shrug it off but i feel like there's an emotional wall that just makes me freeze and unable to cope with stupid shit like this.

I resent my friends for still talking to him and i know if they had to decide between the two of us, it would be him.