I've been homeschooled my whole life. I'm a 18m with no qualifications to my name. I had severe OCD growing up. I'm doing my GCSE qualifications at the moment I've taken some exams already and am going to take some more within the next month I won't get the results till the 25 August and I'm not looking forward to seeing how bad I've done. I value knowledge so much but I'm such an idiot. I want to be smart or at least be average I just can't seem to be the person I want to be. How do I accept I'm stupid and relatively useless in society? How can I find joy when the thing I want is forever out of reach?