im currently attending high school, and as a gay guy, its clear to see that there are guy friends i have that are definitely more than friends. here im talking about one specific person, but we talk 24/7, have the same interests, have the best time together. always glance at eachother, its great. its been like that with other guys too, in the same ways. what keeps us from just like... going for it though is that thin veil of homophobia that still exists in society, where gay men are seen as not real men, especially in teenage years. there are so many straight men out there who if given the opportunity to express the full extent of their sexuality, would totally go for another guy. if society didn’t push heterosexuality so much, gay men would be able to have the same high school experiences as straight men. the same goes for women, btw. like literally i cant help but think that this guy will be the one that got away. that me and him are so close, and so just... perfect for eachother and thats gonna be wasted. a relationship that never had the chance to begin because i know at least now, he could never accept his sexuality. just imagine the number of young men that couldve fallen in love, and led such happy lives, but never had the chance too because of this innate social stigma. its bullshit. its a crime against love. its frankly, a crime against humanity. an infinite amount of love stories have been lost to history because of this BULLSHIT. its 2019, gay marriage is legal in the states, but my love stories dont even get the chance to start. it hurts. it does. i rly love this guy, man. me and him trippin on shrooms on a hike or just texting until hella late like ugh. it fucks with my head. hes gonna be the one that got away. i can feel it. thanks, whoever is to blame.