First a little context: male, 34yo, Brazilian, Engineer. It happened 3 years ago.

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My career was incredible. I was born to a poor family in Brazil, but I graduated from the best school in our country and worked my up to a Project Manager for a few multibillion $ projects. I spent most of career in Europe (Germany).. I was competent and well-behaved. Went to church at least once a week. All my friends were christian.


But I knew I was gay and I knew nobody would ever accept me. Still, I decided to get a boyfriend.

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And that's when it all started. I was preparing to move the US for my MBA, and my worse nightmare happened: My boyfriend infected me with HIV. On purpose. On my way to my MBA, I was extremely depressed. My family disowned me.

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When I was in the US, I had a fling with a guy, and he offered me meth: "cmon, everybody uses it". I thought it must be illegal, but didn't think i was that bad. I had never ever even seen drugs before that. Meth made me forget HIV, so I started using from time to time. Habit and an addiction. I realized what was going on and tried my best to stay way. I truly did. But meth is just insanely addictive. I did meth during encounters, but there was no sex anymore. Just drug use. Long story short, I graduated last year. Lost my job earlier this year at a big healthcare company because I was high on my first day. I decided it was time to break off from drugs once and for all. I called the police on my dealer and he got arrested. I moved to another city to flee from temptation.


Now I'm clean (for \~5 months). I cry everyday because I cannot believe how I could be so unbelievably selfish. I betrayed a country that welcomed me for my studies; my college friends; and myself. I'm having a hard time finding a job now. It's incredible. My CV is amazing, but because I haven't worked in two years, noone wants to hire me.

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There. I'm happy that I got this off my chest. Roast me. I deserve it.