Gf was SA multiple times in past.
My current and first gf is the girl whom I've been best friends with for many years. I really love her and she's the best thing that's ever happened to me. Both of us are in our early twenties. I've had problems with my late father and the whole family in general and I grew up being unable to form real attachments and meaningful relationships with anyone. She was the first one to see right through all of that and we became best friends in our late teens. We've been best friends ever since and we got into a relationship last year. It took a lot of effort building trust and being vulnerable with each other. We shared the deepest and darkest parts of our past and We know everything about each other.
So my gf, when we were bestfriends had mentioned how she'd been molested as a kid by an important member of our church ( we both go to the same church ). She also was very uncomfortable talking about it back then so I didn't push her either. I let her have her space. After we got into a relationship, we talked and she wanted to open up and share all the details. I listened to her and made her feel safe and comfortable as best as I could. She shared things about how the man who molested her as a kid, did it in her own home, and how another member of our church also tried to get uncomfortably close to her multiple times and how once one of her own family members touched her and she had to run away from them.
She shared all this and I felt so bad for her. I kept assuring her that nobody's gonna hurt her now and I love her. I did my best to make her feel safe. She also said she felt safe with me, especially when she sees me training or fighting ( I'm a martial artist ) because that makes her feel physically safe too. But the problem is, her parents did nothing even after she told them abt this awful ordeal she's been through. All they did was "talk" with the senior pastors and members of the church and the 2 preachers are still preaching. I even asked her why her parents took it lightly and all she could say was they did not want too much drama.
Now I'm mad to be honest. I can't imagine how it felt for her to finally open up about this to her parents and then to see they did nothing to really ensure it never happens again. I am mad at her parents too and she knows it. The two guys are still free and happy. Our relationship is good but a part of me keeps planning on how to get to these 2 guys. Since the incidents occurred many years back and there is no definite proof or witnesses, there's not much one can do legally. Besides, I don't want to put her in the spotlight again after she herself has come this far trying to forget what happened. But I also don't want these two guys to be roaming around free like nothing happened, not just because of what happened to my girl but also because there are many other young girls they interact with. I just want them out of the picture.
I'm just venting here. I'm trying to come up with something to atleast get them out of the church. I love my gf so much and I don't want her to keep looking at their faces everytime we're at church just for all the memories to come rushing back in her mind. Most of my relatives have a violent background, some have even worked as henchmen. I can't ask help from them either because once again, that would put her in the spotlight. I honestly don't know what to do from here. I don't want her to reminisce it all once again, but I don't think I can forget or let these two walk around when there's a chance they could do the same to some other girl.
Advices and ideas are welcome.
Posted Mar 18, 2023 17:25 by anonymous
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