I’m 17 never really felt like dating anybody until I met this girl in a math class, we really hit it off and I decided to shoot my shot and tell her how I feel. She agreed to meet up with me sometime this week, this made me feel happy for the first time in a really really long while.

Only 24hrs later she texted me back saying that she wasn’t really looking to date anybody, I’m a great guy though, she’d still love to hang out after school, etc...
I felt so crushed over the weekend that I had to look back.

Those 24 hours between me asking her out and her texting me back were the happiest I’ve felt for almost as long as I can remember. Now I just feel depressed? I guess I don’t want to self diagnose. It’s just that I don’t think I’ve felt happy since almost 2009 when my parents got divorced and my life turned into a shitstorm of a manipulative mother and my dad trying to gain back custody. My life has evened out since then but I don’t remember ever being happy after 2009 except those 24 hours.

(Fuck I’m tearing up in study hall)