Everytime I can't sleep I think of how fucking crazy the last 5 years have been. I'm still not sure how I managed to get where I am today. 5 years ago I was a party animal with an addiction to attention. I was always out with friends, getting drunk, doing drugs, starting my hardcore BDSM porn blog. Today me and my old BDSM partner travel mostly under the radar with no relationships at all except to each other.

I found my first BDSM video today in his old email and watching a basic stranger punch me in the face gave me chills considering today I don't even make small talk with strangers in public. Probably sound like a lunatic but late night rambles are the only conversations I have besides with my partner.