For 20 hours I watched my grandfather fight for his life in the hospital while everyone around me cried and I just stood there and didn't? Am I a heartless piece of sh*t?
Posted Aug 12, 2019 19:26 by anonymous
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I am not a very emotional person. I'm pretty emotionally unavailable, I guess you could call me stoic. I couldn't even provided emotional support because I'm so bad at it and physical affection makes me uncomfortable. I could have at least done that while everyone else was a mess but I didn't and chose to avoid making eye contact with people to avoid those moments.
I was full of anxiety on the inside during those moments, but I guess on the outside I seemed more calm. I feel like they'll probably think that I don't care cause I didn't cry.
I don't really know if I'm in shock right now and still trying to process everything. I know I'm not the only one in the world who would react like this but it feels abnormal? What the hell is wrong with me?
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Commented Aug 12, 2019 19:32 by anonymous
There is no timetable for grieving or exact order of emotions, just make sure not to hold it in. People are different. When you need to talk about it or cry, do it. It may hit you later and that is normal.
Commented Aug 12, 2019 19:34 by anonymous
na deffo not everyone deals with pain and loss different and sometimes i find it best to laugh as strange as that sounds