I've had a pretty rough life, I've gone through a lot I can't say to anyone. My family don't know me as well as they think they do but yet they come and tell me that they think I'm "lesbian". I mean my mom, my brother and my sisters. However this is not bothersome alone because I mean who cares what everyone thinks as long as I know who I am right. What makes it mess with me is that when I was around 5 or 6 years old I remember a cousin telling me I liked girls, now he was not being rude he just said it like not trying to be mean or anything but yeah. Then I've had more people around me tell me that but the most recent one was yesterday at a family reunion, the son of my dad's niece straight up said I have a feeling your like a lesbian. And honestly I don't know why they tell me this just because I like to play sports, motorcycles, video games and so on does not mean I like girls. Also just because I don't wear girly things mean that I'm a lesbian. Sometimes I just feel like maybe I should just become one sense it seems like everyone thinks I am. Also because of this being thrown at me so often maybe they're right truth is at this point of my life I couldn't tell if they're wrong or right. I'm so lost that I don't know what to think anymore. My life's a mess just an 18 year old with a lot of trauma who my parents don't know about. Maybe if they knew they'd understand, but I can't risk it. Also I'm an introvert and feel very uncomfortable with these conversations. I usually just hide them deep within my thoughts, and it's torture.