i keep letting an older black man from my estate fuck me and humiliate me and i just cant seem to stop. he has been plowing my asshole every week and he calls me a dirty fat bitch, the fat pig etc... sometimes he brings his mates round (he likes fucking me in front of them) and they all give me abuse. they slap me around and make me eat out of a dog bowl (sometimes they get on my back when im naked and make me give them pig rides around the flat) anyway, recently they fucked me and stuck an apple in my mouth like a hog and they took pics... now they are sending them around the estate and everyone is telling my kids that their mum is dirty fat pig... i want to stop but i just cant seem to help myself