I get this a lot. Im in my third year of university and I just want to end it all and go smack some cocaine or heroin or both just to spite my addict family. go down the same path that I've been avoiding for my whole life.

would I feel like less was expected of me, or more? right now I feel the weight of the world's expectations on my shoulders. I don't think it'll ever go away until I show my family how I'm a fuck up just like they were/are.

no glimmer of hope, no saving grace for the family. I'm not the fucking innocent angel of the family. for fucks sake.