Why do I always feel like I'm not creative enough? While others are banging their ideas and designs to other people/social media. Here I am always doubting, always questioning mine. There's always this tiny voice inside me telling that "I can't pull it off/ It's too simple!". Why can't I believe in myself the way others are confident with their works?

Why of all people, I am the one who brings me down before anyone can even do so?Why, self?

I've always felt like this ever since high school. Whenever people make fun of my body because I was so skinny. My confidence never really took off even though I'm was an achiever back then.

I'm already an architect now and was one of the topnotchers during my board exam. But I still go back to that same box that I imprisoned myself for so long where I can self-pity whenever I want. Sometimes, I just caught myself daydreaming about how my life could be if only I could be a little bit braver about my decisions?

Why, a lot of people look up to me? Yet I'm the one looking down at myself?