Between the ages of 4-5 if I remember correctly, I had regular sexual experiences with another boy that was around my age. The last time it happened, we were in our usual spot in this patch of woods and were discovered by an older kid from the neighborhood. After that we didn’t hang out or speak and I moved away from that area about a year later. I haven’t had a gay experience since. I don’t identify as gay or bisexual, I don’t feel any outward sexual attraction to males at this point in my life (even though the thought occasionally finds its way into my head), and I don’t feel like I’m actually stuck in the “closet,” but I still wonder why it happened and how I ended up as a hetero male when that was my first sexual contact.