After 2 years of meeting my crush, i finally told her i liked her because the weight of having to deal with "what if you told her that day" was getting super annoying and i'm supposed to feel happy and light but i feel the same.
Posted Aug 29, 2019 01:10 by anonymous
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Some context: 2 years ago i met this girl who i really liked and i wanted to tell her but i was a coward and i couldn't approach, then on the last day i was going to see her again i was just about to open my mouth and say it but i failed, after that i started crying and i started getting bad thoughts, then she invited me to her house to meet up again and i was so happy but my mom didn't let me and said "if you meet up, do it in a public place" so i asked if she could go to a plaza but she said she couldn't because the nearest plaza is a little far away from her house and her mom didn't want to drive that much, so we ended that.
After some time i planned to tell her over text but i kept repeating to myself "Confessing over text is a coward thing to do" and i stopped talking to her.
Fast forward to last week where i got so desperate and so annoyed that i gave up and told her over text that i liked her, at that point i didn't even care if she rejects me, i knew she had a boyfriend and i kept saying to myself "she has a boyfriend there's no way she'll accept you" but i
didn't care, i have to get this off my back, she responded with:
"I have no idea what to tell you, i'm so sorry".
That response gave me a sense of relief for a few minutes, i had finally gotten this old weight off of me and now i was free, but something fell off, i felt the same, why do i feel the same as before? I'm supposed to feel happy that i did that! I confessed to my crush after 2 years of having my consciousness tell me "Why didn't i tell her?"
I should've felt better about myself.
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Commented Oct 11, 2019 05:45 by anonymous
Confessing your feelings is a thing in the movies. It's also a thing for 12 year olds. It's not something that adults should be doing.
Commented Jan 21, 2021 02:30 by anonymous
You sound like you are somewhat out of touch with the world as it really is. For most women, it means nothing if a guy they know has feelings for them. It happens all the time. The only time that it means something to them is if she has feelings for you, but she doesn't or she would have made that clear a long time ago.
The fact that you made such a big deal about it, and spent so much time thinking about it, and the fact that you told her your feelings even though she has a boyfriend tells me that your view of the world does not align with reality. I suggest that you learn more about how relationships really work.