Just writing about my life that no one knows.
Hiding allot stuff inside.

I don’t feel like a victim, maybe i am saying to feel like i am strong man.

I am a male 27 years old, grew up in a good family in third world country middle east so keep in mind no therapy there and a strict Family.

I was molested when i was a kid by my female maid (i was in 1st grade) that’s the only thing I remember from that age, then by a cousin( told me to touch him, he touched me) never told my parents.

Got involved in sexual habits early at age, got molested by that cousin agin age 9. Not intercourse but touching, he told he will do it to my sister if I didn’t lay with him.

Well it doesn’t really affect me now in this stage of life as i was always very keen on handling my psychology (maybe i think so)

My Mother cheated on my dad with his friend , to this date only i know, that man helped me allot in my life like a mentor. Dad has no idea.

Got cheated by first girl, I was 18 not a big deal, i started becoming like a fuckboy.

Now i am in America, running a business and having a job( future looks great, financially idk about mentally) . I an great at my life but now i am in a relationship again with a girl, and i am learning that how sometimes i need attention and she’s not giving me she’s 21 so technically not that mature(she is mature for her age).

Was very insecure and now i am super extrovert. Went to therapy( helped) but everyone says we can’t tell if you have any problems. Idk if these things are affecting me.

I just summarized my life.

Tbh i am crying while writing this. Idk what to say.