Honestly, I'm not the best at explaining things, but I"ll try my best. So, a bunch of my friends and I have been hanging out with each other since middle school. We've always been hanging out; we were the gang. But, as we grew up, we started to drift apart. Physically. The thing that I loved about our relationship is that we wouldn't even let physical barriers get in our way. If we can't meet up in person to hang, then we're going to do it through the internet - through games. Whatever the case was, we'd go somewhat above and beyond to spend time together. Sometimes, on the daily. Sometimes, every weekend. Either way, we're always doing something together.

One of my closest friends has been working far away and returned recently just for the weekend. Earlier, before he came back, he told us when he was going to come back and was wondering if we would like to hang. Obviously, we all wanted to. But, when the weekend came, we found out that he had already made plans with other people, despite calling out to us first. The other friends in our group don't know who he was hanging out with, but I know, and they're people that he only recently came to know. I know that it sounds immature, but having known him for a much longer time, being that he's going to be away for God knows how long after this weekend is over, it kind of hurts that he chose those people, who he hasn't even known for even a single year, over the friends he's known for over an entire decade. I know that he has his own life, and I respect that. I just feel like I was an idiot for valuing him so much in my heart. If I were him, I would've definitely chose to spend that short time before leaving with my closest friends, not a group of people who, in comparison, I've known for a much shorter time.

I don't know what to think of our relationship anymore. It hurts so much because I've been through betrayal before, and just... idk, this is triggering some past trauma, and, at this point, I kind of want to cut ties with him, to be quite honest. At least, for a little while.