If you’ve ever seen Hotel Transylvania, you may recall what a Zing is. Something comparable to love at first sight. That’s what happened when I met this girl. We’ll call her C. I’m not a cheater, or at least I never had been but there was something about C. Nothing mattered but her. We quickly began a tumultuous affair that lasted nearly a year. Lots of secrets, lies, toxic moments, lots of love, lots of tears, lots of memories, lots of good times, and far to many laughs. It was rough and eventually the situation weighed to heavily on us both and given our current age and differing mentalities we ended. The situation blew up in our faces and I reacted badly. I threatened to expose the truth of our affair to everyone after she dismissed everything so easily(she hooked up with an ex from her teenage past right after we ended)while still being with her gf of 4 years. There was a lot of bitter fighting and no proper closure and shit ton of fucked up shit on both ends. She eventually blocked me from everything. Played me out to be the crazy bad guy, the heartless and childish jerk. I’ve never gotten a last word in, and that still haunts me. When you put effort into an already fucked up situation just to be treated like dirt in the end, it makes you question things. Love becomes a tricky and terrifying thing. Times gone by and her as well as I am different now. She’s met a new girl who she’s been with for a while. She seems happy, and I’m happy for her but I still feel like I need proper closure. I need answers. I want an apology. I tell everyone it’s whatever, the past is the past. Most days I agree, but there’s still times when I think or dream about her. I’ve dated since, talked to many women. I’ve never felt what I felt with her since, trust me I’ve opened my heart and tried.