Hey all, I feel like I am in a stuck position. I want to go to college, but I simply can’t afford it. I get bad suicidal thoughts daily. I’m diagnosed with schizophrenia. I want to join the military, but I suck at arithmetic reasoning. I scored a 32 before. I recently watched a video about Nikolas Cruz the school shooter. Me and him have a lot of similarities in common, I’m just blessed to have my parents still. I’m stuck I just want to go to college so bad, but I’m broke. I’m jealous of all the college kids laughing with friends having a good time. While I’m stuck inside a mental hell. College is what I want to do Idk how people afford it is it because of private student loans like Sallie Mae loan? I got bad credit so no Sallie Mae for me.I just quit a job at grocery store because I cant do jobs standing on my feet. I want to sit down I get caught laying down on the floor cause my feet hurt. I need advice I need help please try your best to help me.