Posted Dec 7, 2012 by anonymous | 3096 views | 7 comments
I was 12, he was 16. He raped me every day for 1 year. I did everything I could to avoid being alone with him but my mom worked a lot and my sisters went out.
3 years of forgetting it was brought up with my younger sister and my boyfriend (ex now).
I brought it up with my highschool councellor and she notified CFS. They came by the house and my mother put on a show that we were a peftect family. My little sister won't speak up. She was 10. CFS believed my mother and the only consequence was them insisting he wasn't alone with me.
My younger sister has since forgiven him (she's now 16, he's 22 and I'm 18)
I moved in with him to go to college and he acted like nothing happened.
The only person who believed me was my older sister. And she apologized and cried.
I've since moved out and have nothing to do with my mother, brother and older sister but it still haunts me every day.
I worry its affecting my relationship now because he wants to do things that he (brother) did to me and fear he'll leave me if I don't do these things.
It wasn't the first time I had been sexually abused in my childhood but its the only one that has affected me in the long run.
I'm hoping my story being told will help me with closure and hope that this sort of thing stops.
Learn from my experience and watch out for these things. Speak up! Waiting years won't do anything.
Commented Dec 8, 2012 by anonymous
im sorry to hear this.. stand up for yourself...
You must told your parents about this thing.
He must have shot his seed into you many times so you are lucky to have not got knocked up. Did he get your cherry? Does he ever ask you for it now?
My wife was raped by one of her brothers for an extensive period of time. She did eventually get counseling and managed to convince her brother to do the same and they had some joint sessions to resolve issues. She's on good terms with him now, though of course the sexual abuse leaves its mark to this day. I'm a survivor myself and recommend The Survivor's Guide to Sex: How to Have an Empowered Sex Life After Child Sexual Abuse. There are many layers and complexities to what happened to you. This book will help you map out the territory and decide what, if any, steps you wish to pursue from here. There are others who have gone through what you have gone through and can help us survivors sort through the emotions and experiences. Best of luck.
Commented Dec 9, 2012 by anonymous
How much more disgusting can you get? Seriously, you are either very sick or in need of psych help. Either way there is something wrong.
Commented Dec 10, 2012 by anonymous
He has to be reported before he does it to other girl. The boy has issues that need to be corrected.
Commented Dec 24, 2012 by anonymous
Poor girl.So sad ...
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